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Friday, November 24, 2006

The End

The time has come, my friends, to say goodbye, goodbye to each other, goodbye to our surroundings, goodbye to the lives we have we have lead so far. I can’t really imagine what I'm going to do now, nowhere to go to. The future is hazy, don’t know where I’m going to end up, but the past, it is clear in my head. These memories, I shall carry with me forever. Going through old photographs, each one's got a story to tell, I relive the countless events, with my favourite people in the world, who, its so bloody scary to think, may not even be a part of my life in the future. "you'll make new friends" they say,” its all a part of growing up”. Well, in that case I don’t want to grow up. I wish I could capture this moment, keep it with me, so we'll never have to say goodbye, so we can come back here together, as it always should be, whenever we would like to.
But, its out of my hands now. The universe is too big to worry about us, this is the way it functions. I don’t think I'll have happier days than these, ever, but all good things must come to an end, and this is it.
So, goodbye my friends, we shared lots of laughs. As I sit here and remember, I get this bittersweet feeling, something I have never experienced before, something I cant explain to you, but I'm sure you already know the feeling. You guys are the greatest and I will miss you, miss you always.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Trying to escape it all,I find myself right in the middle of everything once again. Staring at nothing as the ash piles, taking me away from this shithole to the place where i belong. But people all around me,people i dont give a fuck about,people i hate.Trying to push them away but only pulling them closer,closer until i cant breathe.I try to be different,dare not to belong,try and lead the people and find the new,but i fail over and over again,falling flat on my face every single time.That doesn't affect me though.I get straight back up,dust myself and start climbing again.I dont know what I'll find at the top,and I know it may disappoint me,but i also know that it wont.